瓦赫的信 Vache's Letter

娜塔莎的哥哥瓦赫在被流放至雪原之后秘密寄出的信件。 A letter covertly sent by Natasha's brother, Vache, after being exiled to the Snow Plains.

娜塔莎：

Natasha:

展信佳，顺问冬安。

How have you been? I hope you are doing well.

和我在此前的信里说到的一样，我确实嫉妒你。无论面对什么样的患者，你总能表现得泰然自若、平易近人…正是那份与生俱来的亲和力令我心生妒火。

I am, as I stated in my previous letter, envious of you. You always show unwavering kindness to your patients... I'm envious of your inherent compassion.

我还记得刚入学时的演讲：我在台上振臂高呼，不断鼓吹自己研制「风雪免疫」的理想…回想起来，彼时的我简直愚不可及。在医学院最后的日子里，我变得越来越固执，越来越封闭自我。我的心中只剩下实验和抱负，那些理应由我负责的患者们，他们的形象却变得愈发模糊……

I remember giving a speech on stage when I first started school, waving my arms, and advocating for the development of "Blizzard Immunity." In hindsight, I was a fool. During my final days of medical school, I became increasingly stubborn and withdrew into myself. Experiments and ambitions consumed my heart, and the patients who were supposed to be in my care were progressively ignored...

娜塔莎，我不敢奢求你的原谅。下层区的人们，我亏欠他们太多。

Natasha, I dare not beg your forgiveness. I owe the people of the Underworld too much already.

若不是你同意了我自我放逐的请求，我也许终身只是个溺死在理想中的怪胎罢了。透骨的寒冷让我明白了自己的傲慢。一直在温室中长大的孩子，怎么可能领悟驱散严寒的魔法？感谢你给了我最后的机会，让我找到了答案。

I might have spent the rest of my life as a madman wallowing in my convictions if you hadn't agreed to my desire for self-exile. The cold has revealed to me my arrogance. How can a child who grew up in warmth ever begin to comprehend a cure to bitter cold? Thank you for giving me one last chance to discover the answer.

我寄宿在被遗弃的屋檐下，在风雪里不断实验、突破，再实验、再突破。我在颤抖，但不是因为寒冷，而是因为我正一步步接近成功。我已变得面目可憎，无颜再回归文明的社会，也无颜再面对父母…但我并不绝望，因为我已经找到了自己生命的意义。我走在了正确的道路上。

I live in abandoned houses under broken roofs and continue my experiments. One step after another, I've made breakthroughs. I'm trembling, not because of the cold... but because I can feel I'm getting closer to the answer I seek... I'd become a pariah, unable to return to civilized society nor to face my parents... but I didn't despair, because I'd discovered the meaning of my existence. I had a feeling I was on the right track.

我在下层区制作的那些试剂，存在着原理性的巨大漏洞：若只是执着于解决器官失温与衰竭的问题，便会陷入消耗和修补的恶性循环，永无止境。我早该转变自己的研究方向，想办法让身体的器官和循环执行可控的升温。

The reagents I developed in the Underworld have a serious flaw: The medication only addresses the issue of organ hypothermia and failure, and it will be caught in a never-ending vicious cycle of consumption and recovery. I should have changed the focus of my study a long time ago and tried to figure out how to raise the temperature of the organs and of the body in a controlled manner.

谢谢你，娜塔莎。是你帮助我找到了风雪免疫的答案。

Natasha, thank you very much. You helped me find the missing piece in the development of Blizzard Immunity.